I love when God speaks to me. I feel as though He does quite often. I feel I have a deep connection with Him, which makes sense to me considering all that He has brought me through.
I love to write. I’ve always been a writer. People complain about writing papers in school but they’re easier for me. I talk and people don’t listen, don’t understand. They dismiss me as being mentally handicapped and go on, not realizing I am intelligent and have something important to say. The frustration can be too much, so I stay quiet, smile, and nod. Writing, though, has given me a voice. I didn’t think I could share my thoughts at one point. I didn’t know what I’d have to say. It turns out I just had to listen for God’s voice. He has given me a song to sing. It’s amazing how I start typing with no idea what to write, and words begin to pour out of me without my knowledge of where they’re even coming from. And it’s in that time I know: it’s no one but God. For I am His messenger, as we all are.
We all have a voice. We are put on this earth to share our story and share the love of Jesus with others. If you are silent, you are wasting your God given potential to make a difference in this world. Maybe you can’t speak fluently. Maybe you can’t write. Look at Moses: he needed an interpreter to lead the Israelites to the Promised Land. And through God he changed the course of History. God gave you a message to share with this world, so don’t just keep it to yourself.
Except, what if you can’t hear God’s voice? This world is so loud and His voice can be so soft. How do you know His voice? Or worse, what do you do when God is silent? Is He mad? Did you do something wrong? There is nothing more terrifying than fearing that God has forgotten you. Does He care? Can He even hear me screaming at the sky? Because life is hard and I make mistakes. I’ve never been a skilled navigator (I get lost in the grocery store for crying out loud). But all I need is a whisper, a sign, something to let me know I’m on the right track. My world can be out of control, I can be doing donuts like some crazy person trying to find whichever way is due North, when all I have to do is be still. Get somewhere quiet (shove in the headphones if need be), and wait. In such a fast paced world that isn’t easy, but I can promise He’s worth the wait! When the pain gets to be too much, wait. When you’re not sure you’re doing the right thing, wait. And when the King of the universe speaks to you, you’ll know. That old saying, “the teacher is often silent when you’re in the hardest test” might sound cliche, but it really is true. If you can hold on until the sky clears, you will hear the sweet voice of God and come out the other side better than you were before.
Life doesn’t come with an instruction manual, but it does come with a God who loves us more than life itself and desires to have a relationship with us if only we can be silent to hear Him. Don’t fear the silence, for it’s in the silence that the Master’s greatest creations are formed.
1 Kings 19:11-12: And, behold, the LORD passed by, and a great and strong wind rent the mountains, and brake in pieces the rocks before the LORD; but the LORD was not in the wind: and after the wind an earthquake; but the LORD was not in the earthquake: And after the earthquake a fire; but the LORD was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice.