Not About Me

It’s crazy how God can transform our lives and use us to alter the course of human History for His namesake when we surrender our hearts to Him. Eight years ago I felt God was calling me to start a ministry to give the gospel of Christ with children in need through the offering of Christmas gifts containing multiple toys and Bibles. I felt much like Moses must have felt when God called to lead the Israelites to the Promised Land: “I am not qualified to accomplish this task. I can’t even move or breath on my own, how am I supposed to run an organization?” Yet somewhere deep within my soul I heard God telling me to trust Him. So I told my family and with their full support began laying the foundation of what is now known as Candy Cane Kids Ministry. The concept is quite simple: raise money through fundraising efforts, buy toys and Bibles, get volunteers to wrap toys and Bibles as gifts, and deliver the gifts to children going through difficult situations – be it orphans, homeless, abused, abandoned, or sick kids. Over the past seven years, Candy Cane Kids has helped thousands of struggling children receive the true hope of Christmas.

How do I run a charity that gives several hundreds of gifts out every Christmas when I can only move a thumb? It’s truly a God thing. My family hosts fundraising events where all of our money comes from. I maintain the website and social media account, and buy all the toys, Bibles, and wrapping supplies, and volunteers wrap everything and assist with delivery. That is the interworkings of Candy Cane Kids Ministry. I stress over it, pray over it, and work hard to ensure that everything goes off without a hitch. I want it to be the best it can be. I love my ministry. It’s not easy but so worth it because I am making a small but significant contribution to the Kingdom of Heaven.

Today was the biggest day of my calendar year. Today was game day. Toys were bought, gifts were wrapped and labeled by age and gender. Today was the day we were scheduled to deliver 550 presents to a community center in an impoverished area in Reisterstown MD to children who would otherwise not have a Christmas. So many cookies were made, hot chocolate was ready to be made… This was the day we had worked so hard for. I’ve been struggling these past three months with painful health problems, but in spite of that managed to get everything we needed. Today was delivery day! I love delivery day! And yet the day came and I couldn’t be there. I was up all night last night in unimaginable pain and have been battling sinus issues to boot. I have never missed delivery day. I hate the thought of disappointing anyone, but I just couldn’t do it. I can’t run on two hours of sleep, and pain takes a toll on me that I can’t explain. I was disappointed, but the more I’ve thought on the matter, the more confident I am that today was as it should have been. I was behind the scenes. More people should be behind the scenes. I – along with the help of several sweet people – was able to accomplish something amazing today. It is my vision; but today, and the mission of Candy Cane Kids, is not about me. I created this ministry to serve as an offering to the God I love. Candy Cane Kids is my opportunity to brag on my Lord and share His love. I am happy to do it. I am happy to help, but I certainly don’t need to be the center of attention. Please give the attention to my King. I think that’s what the Bible means when it says “He must increase, I must decrease.” I’m the messenger, as we all are. God has called us to help others, but let us never forget to give God that glory He so rightly deserves. He is worthy!

Merry Christmas!
Talk soon!

2 thoughts on “Not About Me

  1. Love you sweet friend. What a blessing you are to so many. You were not there physically on Saturday, but you were there in every gift handed out. Your story went home with each child and your love for Jesus despite your challenges went with them too.


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