After much consideration, I have decided to share a chapter from my book. Yes, I have written a book. It’s not published because it’s not finished and I’m still adding life events, but I have a book. Here is one chapter:

One of my favorite passages of scripture can be found in John 9:1-3:

Now as Jesus passed by, He saw a man who was blind from birth. And His disciples asked Him, saying, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?” Jesus answered, “Neither this man nor his parents sinned, but that the works of God should be revealed in him.”

“Why do bad things happen to good people?”

This question plagues people worldwide, regardless of religious affiliation, race, age, or region. Why would a God of love let His children suffer? Does He even care? Is He listening to my prayers? There are just some things in this life that we will never be able to understand until we reach Heaven, and that’s OK. However, there are some things of which I am sure of:

God does care. He loves you more than you can fathom.

He hears every single prayer you say aloud and those you store inside your heart.

He answers every prayer, regardless of whether it’s the answer you want.

He is unpredictable, but His plans are perfect and He is good.

Let’s really examine this question of “Why do bad things happen to good people?” First, define good. What constitutes as a good person? Because according to scripture, none of us are good in comparison to the God of the universe. In fact, according to Isaiah 64, all of our righteous acts are like filthy rags. Do you know what “filthy rags” translates to? The term originates from the Hebrew root ‘ed for filthy and refers to results of a woman’s menstrual cycle. Disgusting, right? The point I am trying to make is that none of us are good to begin with, and so the question in essence is invalid. We are worthless, and yet God lovingly bestows grace on us time and time again. Also, if Jesus Christ, who was a perfect image of God made in flesh, had to face suffering Himself, what makes you think that you deserve better than Him?

See, as many already know, God’s original manuscript for mankind was a perfect utopia in which evil could not enter. The original version of man and woman, Adam and Eve, were created by God Himself to rule over the Garden of Eden, and they were given one commandment and dominion over everything else. Unfortunately, they chose to sin against God and blew their shot at a perfect and carefree life in face-to-face fellowship with God. That one act of eating from the forbidden tree brought sin into the world forevermore. It was not God’s fault in the least that mankind betrayed Him in going against His will and thus tarnishing the original concept of a perfect sin-free world, and once it was done it was done it couldn’t be undone.

The story of the origin of sin still doesn’t help you cope when you’re in the middle of a storm, though. When your child has just been diagnosed with Leukemia, you don’t want to hear Bible stories or philosophies on why this tragedy is happening. Life is not always logical, and we as humans are not able to see the bigger picture because we are not God. We are too blind to realize that every trial that comes into our lives is simply a new opportunity for us to strengthen our faith and encourage others. I heard a quote once that went something like this: life is 10% of what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it.

I don’t know why bad things happen to good people, but I believe that if I wasted precious time searching for the answer, I would miss out on some great blessings God has given me. Life is so much better when I accept the inevitable, give God all my heartache to God, and enjoy life to the fullest. I have a horrible disease, but I love my life because of the joy I have. People that go through hell on earth and come out victoriously are the ones who have unshakable faith. When coal is forced through levels of extremely high heat, diamonds are formed. You’re a diamond, darling – now is your time to shine.

I don’t understand why I’m suffering, going through the hardest trial of life thus far. I don’t understand why we can’t find the answers to help me find relief yet. But I still believe in the omnipotence and sovereignty of God, even when all seems lost. I watched “The Star” tonight – GREAT movie, by the way – and I particularly loved when the Mary character sad “just because God has a plan doesn’t mean it will be easy.” Man, what a true statement that is. I don’t have the answers to my questions of why, but sometimes the only thing that holds me together is holding to the promise that God has not forsaken me even in the darkest nights.

7 thoughts on “Why

  1. I am lifting you up Amber…Hope you don’t mind but I put your pic on my lock and home screen of my phone to remind me to pray for you…you are a warrior and a well versed warrior…love you girl💪🏻 Love Lilly


  2. Praying for you Amber you are amazing. Your life is such a witness to us all. Asking God to give you the grace to face each and every trial. Im also asking God for complete and total healing. What’s impossible with man, is possible with God. “…we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose.” ROMANS 8:28


  3. Thank you sweet cousin I needed to read this. All I can say is you inspire me and you are an amazing young lady! I continue to pray for you, for Gods great healing power over you and for answers. I love you sweetie!!❤️😘❤️❤️❤️


  4. We will always be praying for our lovely lady. You are such a great worrior. You have had to fight everyday of your life. But you never let it come between you and God. I love you so much.


  5. Amber, you are such a Lovely and talented young woman! Thank you for sharing this great chapter in your book, it is a great inspiration to me, YOU are a great inspiration to me. I pray for God to heal you and continue to use you in a mighty , powerful way for your good and His honor and glory!


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